Day 30
“I’m done waiting for perfect. I want to live grateful, happy and excited about life today. Not because it feels easy or always comfortable - but simply because this ordinary day is an incredible gift and I don’t want to miss it.” - A Life in Progress
The last month has taught me that each day is a gift. Each day has taught me that even if I don’t feel grateful about today, tomorrow is a new day.
I am in a chapter of my life that I wish to move on from. It’s not about being a stay at home mom, or in the trenches of diapers and tantrums. It’s a place where I have gotten myself mentally stuck. I feel like I’ve said this many times here, but I feel like I can’t be happy because my life isn’t what I want it to be yet. I am not content, and I tell myself that if I were, things would magically get better. Ultimately, if I really want to see change in any area of my life, I am the one who needs to take the first step. I can’t just sit and wait for something to happen. I need to make it happen.
I get stuck because I don’t always know what the first step is.
I am the type of person who wants to see progress. If I don’t see progress I become discouraged. This can help me or it can harm me. When I see progress I want to keep going and I am more likely to follow through with whatever I am doing. If I don’t see progress I get caught up in a fog of confusion and become apathetic.
I guess what I am trying to say is that I am ready to turn the page to a new chapter. I have guidance and I know the direction I’m facing is the right one. At the same time, I realize that I shouldn’t wait to be happy. If I want to improve myself and my surroundings, it doesn’t mean that I am not content. Unless I am sitting stagnant, refusing to be happy and refusing to change, it’s okay to strive for my best life.
“Happiness is letting go of what you assume your life is supposed to be like right now and sincerely appreciating it for everything that it is. At the end of this day, before you close your eyes, smile and be at peace with where you’ve been and grateful for what you have. Life is good.” - Angel Chernoff